then he smiled at me

Merry Merry Merry Christmas!!

Gus is trying to ruin Christmas by being the smelliest dog in the universe. He has no reason to look so sad.

buzz, buzz, buzz

Today was a good day in class.  I love looking at other people's photographs.  I can do it for hours and hours.

  Then I came across this quote.  I've been thinking about it all day.

Those who do not want to imitate anything, produce nothing. - Salvador Dali 

there's a hole where something was

I'm getting used to this city again.

sun shine, sunshine on me

In the past few weeks I've been awake for way too many sunrises.

Yet I managed to catch only one sunset.

This means I'm really, incredibly tired.  

But I have to say how much I've missed New York.  Before the plane even landed, I was looking at Manhattan from way above and thinking How did I ever have the strength to leave you the first time? 

Before I even got out of the car I was feeling like I'd never left.  How easy it would be to just slip back and live a big life there again.

I've been roaming around always looking down

I'm glad to be where I am. I do miss aspects of my life in California, but not enough to want to be there. There's not a lot going on here, but I prefer it to where I was.

I'm a festival, I'm a parade

from the far side of the ocean

Connemarra, Ireland.

It was the most beautiful place I've ever been to. I've ever been more content and I didn't want to be anywhere else.

don't be so careful

more to come.

all the commotion

Since my last post, I've moved to another city, drove halfway across the country - by myself, left all my friends, traveled to another country, went through about seven different time zones, didn't sleep, slept too much, ate amazing food, saw amazing things, read amazing books, listened to awesome music and got really sad. I pet a cat in the rain, a cow next to a castle, I fed a baby lamb. I got inspired and excited and scared. I went broke, watched a man almost drown in a river and realized I changed a lot since last April.

makes her fly

I'm still here.
All that talk and fuss and I haven't actually gone anywhere yet.

lullaby

I'm not crazy

I just lost my will

for a little while

Tonight I was driving back to Los Angeles, for the very last time, hopefully, and I suddenly remembered what it felt like to want to be fearless. Now I think there is no such thing, maybe there's always fear in being courageous.

There was a miserable summer in MA, but there was a teacher who taught us to live 'in the mud' and I tried that for years. I don't know that I ever quite lived up to it, but I wanted to. I tried. Maybe I'll try again.

wish you on your way

It's been a rough week. But it's just small stuff in the big scheme of things. This beach will always be one of my favorite things about California.

never write down what I mean

This is the last time I fly home, when home is in California. It's okay. It's good. I'm ready, so ready to leave Los Angeles.

for mackenzie

baring knuckles

The flowers were my idea. I knew the yellow would bring out his eyes.


I did all the flower arranging myself.


Everything was cool until I put the flower on his head. Then he threw a diva fit and stormed off.

So yeah, we had creative differences, but I think to create art you've got to take some risks.

I have bloody scraped knees from crawling on the concrete. Bleeding for your art is good too.

ain't born typical

Good things, amazing things are going to happen again. And again and again. Soon.

coachella day 3

I can't wait for next year!

coachella 2008

I say it every year, but this really was the best one ever. It wasn't too hot, three of my very favorite bands were there, the crowds were pretty laid-back and the strawberry lemonades were awesome.

slow dumb show

I had my doubts and I didn't want to go, but it was still the best weekend of the year.

cold gold

I knew I was going to miss Chicago tonight. I didn't realize how much.

going, gone

went to Vegas